First of let me start with what an AMAZING GOD we serve... we are now about 8 weeks out of recovery and today papaw has started back to Patricia Neal rehab... to say it has been easy seeing not only him but my family go through this would not be the full truth...the truth is it SUCKS and it SUCKS bad....that is the nicest way i can put it right now.. i do find myself wondering WHY and IS THIS MY WAKE UP CALL? i KNOW in my heart of hearts that is not for us to ASK WHY? he says in Jeremiah 29:11....
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future.
You see it isn't for us to QUESTION but to TRUST...but the human in me wants to know WHY...WHY do i have to watch the MOST GODLY MAN i know struggle to do the very things that for 75 yrs he has been able to do...? WHY do i have to see MY WORLD seem to be taken from me... little by little? WHY does it have to hurt so bad? Then i am reminded of this verse he doesn't do it to HARM us he doesn't do it to set us back... IT IS ALL IN HIS PLAN... you see THE MOST GODLY MAN i know could not be here with us right now...THE MOST GODLY MAN i know could not be 7 weeks out from a stroke and tried to cut his hair with a ALMOST fully functional left hand only to have me his cosmetologist granddaughter fix it and still laugh about it.... :) You see i SHOULDN'T be saying WHY LORD? but LORD I PRAISE YOU FOR BRINGING HIM THIS FAR!!! and i SHOULDN'T be upset that he is NO LONGER the man he used to be BUT LORD I THINK YOU FOR HAVING HIM HERE TO ENJOY for whatever time i have left with him as he is... FOR YOU KNOW THE PLANS YOU HAVE FOR US...
i am not gonna say that it still don't HURT and i cant say that with a tear in my eye i will never ask WHY.. but i do vow to go forward and SAY THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME... YOU ARE GOOD AND MOST WORTHY!!!
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