Wednesday, February 22, 2012

my home away from home

                                                                Jamaica                                                                  
                                      

          what can i say? i was introduced to MY HOME AWAY FROM HOME... 3years ago
                             
I am beyond privileged to have not 1 but 2 church families... not only is Emory Valley my home church but i have had for the last few years the honor of being part of my parents church that i lovingly refer to as my FAV MARTINS CHAPEL...and with that honor has come the GREATEST BLESSINGS  of my life RIPPLING HOPE MISSIONS TEAM.... for the last 3 yrs i have been honored to be a part of this group... My first trip was in 2009 only my 2nd time being out of the country...it was the most humbling and awesome experience ever and i was sharing it with an awesome  group of people among them...MY PARENTS...my first trip i remember thinking WOW..what i wouldn't give for the people in America to want what the people in Jamaica want and i seen first hand how much we take for granted THE SON OF GOD and what HE DOES for us...we had so many things that weren't supposed to happen on that trip that was GOD doing and that's the only reason for the things happening...i learned that if you DON'T LIKE chicken..well Jamaica may not be your country ;) i learned that GODS GRANDEST blessings come in the smallest packages ...and sometimes his BLESSINGS are there...you just have to climb a mountain to find them..FAMILY is what makes the BAD things GOOD again no matter what you have or DON'T have...my 2nd trip in 2010.... i learned that sometimes even in Jamaica you have to make known what you already know is THE GREATEST BLESSING the SON OF GOD!! and even if they cant see it... HE IS STILL THERE... and will BE... i learned the he BLESSES his children and what GIVES HIM THE GLORY shall RICHLY BE BLESSED twice fold...i also experienced the pain and heartache of losing the ones you love and the joys of the LORD with another life coming into the world....my third trip just this past October was a mixture of the previous years i seen the ones that wanted it but the same was seen the ones that didn't want what we were there to bring..and honestly my heart was saddened.. we even experienced the devil first hand...ALL 3 of these trips hold special meanings and LASTING MEMORIES that are FOREVER ETCHED in my HEART.... i want to THANK GOD for the opportunity to be able to go and do this and to be his fisherman and to bring HIS SALVATION to those we may not otherwise have the opportunity  to know him.. i have made lasting friendships and hope to go back again and lord willing if it is his will.... when he calls i will go!!

Monday, February 20, 2012

plans....

OK.. so i am not sure where this is going to go so just hang on with me for a lil bit and it might go somewhere ;)
 First of let me start with what an AMAZING GOD we serve... we are now about 8 weeks out of recovery and today papaw has started back to Patricia Neal rehab... to say it has been easy seeing not only him but my family go through this would not be the full truth...the truth is it SUCKS and it SUCKS bad....that is the nicest way i can put it right now.. i do find myself wondering WHY and IS THIS MY WAKE UP CALL? i KNOW in my heart of hearts that is not for us to ASK WHY? he says in  Jeremiah 29:11....
 
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future.
 
You see it isn't for us to QUESTION but to TRUST...but the human in me wants to know WHY...WHY do i have to watch the MOST GODLY MAN  i know struggle to do the very things that for 75 yrs he has been able to do...? WHY do i have to see MY WORLD seem to be taken from me... little by little? WHY does it have to hurt so bad? Then i am reminded of this verse he doesn't do it to HARM us he doesn't do it to set us back... IT IS ALL IN HIS PLAN... you see THE MOST GODLY MAN i know could not be here with us right now...THE MOST GODLY MAN i know could not be 7 weeks out from a stroke and tried to cut his hair with a ALMOST fully functional left hand  only to have me his cosmetologist granddaughter fix it and still laugh about it.... :) You see i SHOULDN'T be saying WHY LORD? but LORD I PRAISE YOU FOR BRINGING HIM THIS FAR!!! and i SHOULDN'T be upset that he is NO LONGER the man he used to be BUT LORD I THINK YOU FOR HAVING HIM HERE TO ENJOY for whatever time i have left with him as he is... FOR YOU KNOW THE PLANS YOU HAVE FOR US...
i am not gonna say that it still don't HURT and i cant say that with a tear in my eye i will never ask WHY.. but i do vow to go forward and SAY THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR BLESSINGS ON ME... YOU ARE GOOD AND MOST WORTHY!!!